training yourself slowly is what many do on WW. I tend toward the
perfection thing so I had to go whole hog, so to speak or it wouldn't work
for me. In the end you have to decide what you want and what you are
willing to do to get it. I understand using the food in the house but you
are cheating yourself by not eating more zero point items. If it is not the
right time for you to lose weight that is fine and if you realize that, then
it is to your credit. What I can tell you is that I have lost close to
eighty pounds and the only time I have ever been hungry are when I waited to
long to eat. And don't think that your menus are different because you
don't have a planned one. I rarely plan beyond I think I want" insert main
course here" The next time I eat. I "plan" as I am eating so that I am not
on a search for food while hungry, good luck, Lee
Amanda wrote in message
...
OK,

After four days, I am nowhere near the allotted points yet, as I'm
unwilling to
start feeling deprived because honestly, it kicks up all sorts of
unhealthy and
wacky emotional stuff for me, and I end up eating more, not less. This
has got
to be fun, and feel good, or forget it, I'm better off not playing with
dieting
fire at all -- too dangerous, I don't want to get bigger!

I'm really testing to see if this is something I can use to GENTLY and
SLOWLY
retrain myself, to be nicer to myself. I honestly have no clue about
portion
sizes, I can see that.

People asked me to post my day's "menus", ha ha ha, I'm still just
haphazardly
grazing through what was already here (like 2 large Papa John's pizzas
laying
around from Friday night -- not a common event) and doing what I'd
normally do,
*but* keeping an eye on portions.

As the days have gone by, I've been playing a little with the portions,
paring
them down to whatever "one" WW serving size is, and seeing when I feel
hungry
again.

With that, here's a telling trend -- these are "Flex Points Spent" per
day,
from day one through today (if I just eat what I plan to eat):
26.5 (pizza)
21 (out with friends, ordered the duck)
16.5
12

I am about to go make my dinner, again, keeping the portions down, but
eating
what's here/what I want to eat. I'm VERY hungry, it's almost alarming,
it's
like I don't know what it feels like, ha ha ha. Hopefully dinner will be
satisfying (steak, potatoes, corn) and I won't need a snack. Gotta go to
the
store and get some bananas and apples. :-)

Slowly getting the point...
Amanda the
~dietphobic
TDC Ginny Favers, Captive Princess of Chickapin Hill
Planning my next trip way, way, way too far in advance:
12/03 - Villas at Wilderness Lodge & Animal Kingdom Lodge
Summer '05 - Disneyland
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