On Mon, 13 Oct 2003 05:43:39 GMT, "Lorelei"
wrote:

Damsel in dis Dress wrote:
. I don't understand why I'm
eating food I don't even like!

self-sabatoge? just a thought. I've done it to myself enough times. try to
figure out for yourself what losing that weight will mean for your future.
will your job be good enough? will you still want to stay in or will you
want to be out more? will SO still be good enough? I ask these questions
because I either have answered them for myself or still need to. ain't
these here support groups grand?
best wishes to you

The reason I gained the weight was to give my then-husband an excuse for
never touching me. If I was fat, it made sense to me. Without a "reason,"
I couldn't understand, or even begin to accept that life.

Now I'm with someone who adores me in any way, shape, or form. I don't
work, so it's basically just him and me. I'm not sure why I would
subconsciously try to harm myself. It's a new concept for me, and it's
going to take awhile to digest it. Maybe I don't think I'm worthy of
being happy?

Things to ponder.

Carol
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226/196/150
October Challenge Goal - 191
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Atkins since January 26, 2003
Type 2 Diabetic since May 15, 2001