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I Walk the Line
Walking the line? Sometimes I step over it.
Midnight: the dog wakes me. I check the fridge to see if anything has been added. It has not but I have 1/4 cup of yogurt, some diluted orange juice a half slice of Swiss cheese, and a big slice of guilt. Hardly what we usually consider a binge around here. The scale is back up a pound this morning. To uptight me it is as visible as an elephant strolling down our street. The main thing spring brings is hope and winter removes it. It is a sort of free floating emotional thing that impacts your serotonin and emotions but unless you get your ass in gear the hope remains buoyed up for only so long.(usually until summer) I awoke this morning with the usual Seinfeld crap, same old, same old. The weather is still frigid and scheduled to remain so all week. Whether eighty pounds overweight or three, concerns about weight are extreme, overriding and perpetual. A near perfect day requires losing or maintaining a weight loss no matter how miniscule. It started when I was eight and sixty-seven years later it's still ever present at times whether I weigh 139 or 219 or somewhere a little over 139. My hair color changed, my tax bracket changed, and once within twenty five years, my phone number changed, but despite all the intellectual conditioning my hangup and emotional position about my weight has never changed even when my weight changed. maybe what I really need to lose is the frontal brain lobe!! :-( -- Diva ***** Hostile cooperation is at the core of passive-aggression, |
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"Carol Frilegh" wrote in message ... My hair color changed, my tax bracket changed, and once within twenty five years, my phone number changed, but despite all the intellectual conditioning my hangup and emotional position about my weight has never changed even when my weight changed. maybe what I really need to lose is the frontal brain lobe!! :-( -- Diva please leave your frontal brain lobe alone! perhaps you could talk to your doctor about this obsession? throw out your damn scale? do you want to live out the rest of your life obsessing about your weight? rosie |
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readandpostrosie wrote: "Carol Frilegh" wrote in message ... My hair color changed, my tax bracket changed, and once within twenty five years, my phone number changed, but despite all the intellectual conditioning my hangup and emotional position about my weight has never changed even when my weight changed. maybe what I really need to lose is the frontal brain lobe!! :-( -- Diva please leave your frontal brain lobe alone! perhaps you could talk to your doctor about this obsession? throw out your damn scale? do you want to live out the rest of your life obsessing about your weight? rosie Can you be told not to imagine an elephant is in the room? |
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In article ,
readandpostrosie wrote: "Carol Frilegh" wrote in message ... My hair color changed, my tax bracket changed, and once within twenty five years, my phone number changed, but despite all the intellectual conditioning my hangup and emotional position about my weight has never changed even when my weight changed. maybe what I really need to lose is the frontal brain lobe!! :-( -- Diva please leave your frontal brain lobe alone! perhaps you could talk to your doctor about this obsession? throw out your damn scale? do you want to live out the rest of your life obsessing about your weight? rosie Rosie, I am puzzled by your suggestion. 95% of those who lose weight regain it. I lost a lot of weight and have had major gains and losses throughout my lifetime. The past six years are the longest period my weight has remained stable. I have been on ASD since 1996. Being involved with the group helped me reach my goal and daily R&P has helped me maintain watchfulness and take action when required. I got below my goal and was too thin and drawn at 136 punds for my age. I have tried to remain in the low 140's and set a mark of 145 as the one that should not be exceeded. Recently, my weight jumped to 147 and I got right to work and will get back to where iI belong, comfortable and no skinny Minny. This would not happen if I did not exert control. Maintenance requires vigilance and motivation. Being predisposed to obesity requires a fair amount. I am unhappy when I gain weight, and content at a realistic, reasonable and healthy weight despite exposing my supermodel dreams. (I could never bikini wax :-) If my comfort zone is only three or four pounds away, it can be managed. Ignoring this will undo all my hard work which has been rewarding. I have other interests in life, my dogs, my support group for autism, a fun group for soaps, the family, movies, creative writing, my book club and cooking classes etc. Dieting may be a big thing in my life but it is not the only thing! You have made me wonder how important the weight issue is to other veteran members on ASD who have been successful with weight loss and maintenance? -- Diva ******** Completing 6 years of maintenance |
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Can you be told not to imagine an elephant is in the room?
diva, i don't want to miss your point here, but i seem to be. please explain this. |
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I have other interests in life, my dogs, my support group for autism, a fun group for soaps, the family, movies, creative writing, my book club and cooking classes etc. Dieting may be a big thing in my life but it is not the only thing! that is good to read............................... |
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readandpostrosie wrote: Can you be told not to imagine an elephant is in the room? diva, i don't want to miss your point here, but i seem to be. please explain this. You have asked me to ask a doctor to help me be less conscious about something I need and want to have fairly high awareness of even if it includes disproportionate concern. Today I did "Just walk away Renee" But here I am blogging instead of jogging! Got away from the iMac, TV, Book of the month, inane phone chat and Talk Radio and took myself to The Art Gallery of Ontario (and climbed numerous subway stairs in the process). The old masters and their fat mistresses are currently in storage as the gallery is undergoing a "transformation" by leading architect Frank Gehry who is from Toronto. Only three exhibits are on view because of this extensive face lift currently taking place. Gehry's stunning and curvacious bent steel sculptured buildings that rock and lean In Boston, Chicago, Prague, L.A. and Spain (except for the Toronto Art gallery project which is just plain boring). Henry Moore's substantial curvaceous sculptures made me feel positively petite and cheerful works by Canadian impressionist David Milne were a reminder that yes Virginia, even in Canada there will be spring.. Never mind soul food! This food for the soul totally occupied both mind and appestat for three hours. I was very hungry, ate an early dinner and need to close the kitchen until bedtime, four hours from now...and plan more escapes from Kitsch and kitchen. -- Diva **** Lack of actions leads to no desired changes |
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I'm VERY GLAD to 'see' how very human
that you are Carol !! :) I have learned to be creative since coming to ASD! I think that I've been Grandma Moses as I've NEVER sketched nor painted until about four years ago! Now I sketch and I love this! Plus I paint. I have some great books from the MASTERS!! Carol, you have inspired me often:) Also you have sometimes kicked my butt and it was OFTEN needed ! glo |
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