right size now and everything looks smaller

Weight Watchers has really helped me big time, I think losing at least one
pound a week for a long time, and I am at my right size now and
everything looks smaller, i feel great!, but my wife is put OFF ME,
she says she she liked me better when I was fat, I don't understand
it, she was the one who said that I should lose weight, and she sowed
the seed in my mind. We used to be intimate all the time, but we have
not been intimate for over eight months. 9 weeks ago she moved out.
She said that I have become over confident in myself, and she hates
it, Anyway I go through the fall proceedings of the divorce papers
soon, and my right to seeing my child once a week. She's written a
letter saying if I put the fat back on, she may consider building a
relationship again mybe, anyway I started to eat a little more, and I
put back on four pounds, even the weight watchers, seem a bit confused
by my story. But they said to me, you took nearly two years to get so
incredibly fit and healthy. so I'm in two minds right now, maybe I
should just stay slim, well I was on my own from the age of 19 to 35
without a girlfriend because I was so shy, so I'm sure I can stay on
my own again. I think you are just better off this day and age staying
single. I'm now 37, so I had two great years being married in some
ways. But the whole thing has been an emotional and financial burden,
and I am renting a small room , because I can't afford to run a
house. and I was a lot less stressed when I was single and for all
them years. Many people are single and happy I was single and happy,
I just thought my life would improve, and all i wanted to do was
improved my life, and make others happy. Now my day which consists
of getting up at 6:20 a.m. for work coming home at 5:30 p.m. put in a
Weight Watchers ready-made meal in the microwave, flicking through the
channel's, and I spend Sunday's geting ready for work on Monday. Life
is really boring, and the guy next room to me as his music loud all
the time and I can't sleep I asked him to turn it down and he turn it
up more! and it's making me ill . But I'm so tempted to put the Lbs
back on, and indulge in junk food. But I find talking to myself stops
me eating too much, but the crazy thing is I keep talking to myself I
spend maybe four to five hours a day telling myself jokes and stories
but it keeps me happy and its stops me going crazy. Thanks for
listening to me.