I Feel So Rotten :(

On 13 Oct 2003 05:50:33 GMT, (ConnieG999) wrote:

Damsel in dis Dress writes:

One of my ongoing problems is that,
nearly every afternoon or early evening, I'm plunged into an intolerable
depression. My historical way of dealing with this has been to turn to
comfort foods.

Carol, do you keep a journal? Have you considered or tried doing some deep
soul-searching when the depression hits? Sometimes I make a big stack of
whatever LC comfort food I'm in the mood for - cheesecake for comfort, pork
rinds for anger, Slim Jims for hunger, etc, and chew on them while I write. If
nothing else you can write about your frustration or your anger or your food
situation, and the snacks will keep you out of the popcorn and other baddies.
Good luck - I know how hard it is some days.

It's weird. I can come into the NG and bare my soul to who knows how many
people, but when I write in a diary or journal, I get all paranoid, and
destroy it. I don't know what's wrong with me (Can you say, "major
chemical imbalance?" I knew you could!).

Thanks for the suggestion. I think there are spots on the Atkins site
where you can keep a journal. Couldn't hoit!

Connie
************************************************* ****
My mind is like a steel...um, whatchamacallit.

I love that sig! I've got the same brain!

Thanks,
Carol
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226/196/150
October Challenge Goal - 191
http://photos.yahoo.com/carol_arie/
Atkins since January 26, 2003
Type 2 Diabetic since May 15, 2001

Luna said, and I quote
" I don't try to fight the fact that I have a
tendancy to periodically get obsessed with things, it's part of my
personality. But I do try to make sure the obsessions are good or harmless
ones.


Amazingly, and thankfully, Prozac 40 mg/day (I started taking this 4 months
before I started LC. I was taking 20 mg/day and it was enough. Once I
started LC, I starting having breakthrough OCD thoughts. I had been free of
them for a few months and dreadedth thought of feeling like that
again.......so I doubled my dose. ran out early and went to the DR to get a
refill and increase. and my labs (which were fabbbullloooouuuss.) so I live
on that everyday. but nearly every day is great, and all are better than
they were a year ago.
best wishes to all of us

--
Lori
220/147/135
LC since 1/17/03
Oct Challenge 150/145
http://community.webshots.com/user/lorismiller

Damsel in dis Dress wrote:
On Mon, 13 Oct 2003 05:37:10 GMT, "Lorelei"
wrote:

Oh Carol, My heart goes out to you. my DH #1 was a self-medicating
bipolar. he drank. he died at age 25. by his own hand. I wish I
could give you advice, but the best I can do is give you this
{{{{Carol}}}}}. (that was my first hug online). Hang in there, get
your meds adjusted or whatever and stop hurting yourself.
love lori

Aw, now I'm crying. Happy tears, of course. It makes me feel good
to know that you care so much. Mental illness sucks, bigtime. But I
won't let the gremlins in my brain win, dammit!

I never really thought of food as self-medicating, but of course,
you're absolutely right. I've never gotten into alcohol or drugs,
but food.... yes. I'll let y'all know what the doc says on Tuesday.
The man really knows his stuff. I'm terribly impressed by him.
Hopefully, he can find a way to help me with this. If not him, one
of the therapists.

My first priority on Tuesday, though, is to see if there's something
that can be done to prevent me from beating the tar out of my SO
every night. Apparently, I have a lot of internal anger that comes
out while I'm asleep.

Yup, I'm one ****ed up bitch.

{{{{{Lori}}}}}

Gratefully,
Carol

you know Carol, what it is, is that. I feel so beautiful inside and outside
these days that I want to spread the feeling. it's kind of an epiphany for
me. long time coming. I find myself being so much nicer to people, more
playful which is good because I work in pediatrics in a children's hospital
in our state. I get emotional when I work a double or two. : )

--
Lori
220/147/135
LC since 1/17/03
Oct Challenge 150/145
http://community.webshots.com/user/lorismiller

"Damsel in dis Dress" wrote in
message ...
I'll be talking with him later this evening, to try to work out a
strategy
for dealing with this problem. I don't understand why I'm eating
food I
don't even like!


Has it been gloomier than usual in the evenings? I ask because we've
had grey skies for the last few days and I find I'm really having to
fight snarfing things that aren't good for me, I don't like the taste
of, and don't satisfy anyway (nothing worse than an over full stomach
and the niggling whisper of 'feed me' still sounding in the back of
your head).

I wonder if those home tanning lamps you find sometimes will stimulate
the pituitary enough to stop the blues.

revek

On Mon, 13 Oct 2003 01:13:33 -0500, "revek" wrote:

"Damsel in dis Dress" wrote in
message ...
I'll be talking with him later this evening, to try to work out a
strategy
for dealing with this problem. I don't understand why I'm eating
food I
don't even like!

Has it been gloomier than usual in the evenings? I ask because we've
had grey skies for the last few days and I find I'm really having to
fight snarfing things that aren't good for me, I don't like the taste
of, and don't satisfy anyway (nothing worse than an over full stomach
and the niggling whisper of 'feed me' still sounding in the back of
your head).

I wonder if those home tanning lamps you find sometimes will stimulate
the pituitary enough to stop the blues.

Yeah, it's been rainy and grey and just plain icky the past few days. I
keep the windows open, so I get as much natural light as possible. Of
course, when we moved, I gave my full-spectrum light unit to my sister. I
wonder if that's part of my problem. Yet another thing to ponder.....

Thank you,
Carol
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226/196/150
October Challenge Goal - 191
http://photos.yahoo.com/carol_arie/
Atkins since January 26, 2003
Type 2 Diabetic since May 15, 2001

In article , damsel-
says...

I really don't know why I'm having such a hard time getting back into this.
I have a fridge full of lettuce, cabbage, and broccoli, and I'm eating
popcorn.

I miss popcorn. Not because I'm on Atkins, but because, in the aftermath of
9/11/2001 I somehow managed to crack a tooth root (grinding/clenching). I could
barely eat anything until I got it fixed. I already had crowns, and had to get a
very expensive 3-crown bridge as a result. I've had to have some other
dentalwork done in the last couple of years, too. The thought of cracking a
tooth or even just putting too much pressure on it from an unpopped kernel is
more than enough to keep me from indulging :-) I've developed something of an
aversion to them for this reason, the same way I eventually developed an aversion
to walnuts because they give me mouth ulcers.

For that matter, I think that my sensitive teeth may have something to do with my
general preference for poultry, fish & eggs as opposed to beef and pork, although
I never was very big on meat in the first place.

--
Saffire
205/187/125
Atkins since 6/14/03
Progress photo: http://photos.yahoo.com/saffire333

In article , damsel-
says...
As a lot of you know, I'm bipolar. One of my ongoing problems is that,
nearly every afternoon or early evening, I'm plunged into an intolerable
depression. My historical way of dealing with this has been to turn to
comfort foods.

This has probably occurred to you already, but just in case it hasn't, perhaps
you need a natural light source later in the day. People with Seasonal Affective
Disorder (SAD) tend to get depressed during winter due to a lack of natural
sunlight and are sometimes helped by special lighting. It couldn't hurt to try,
anyway.

I hope your back heals soon! It can be a real bitch. I remember someone saying
once that there are 3 kinds of people: 1) people WITH back problems; 2) people
who have HAD back problems; and 3) people who WILL have back problems. Sigh ...

--
Saffire
205/187/125
Atkins since 6/14/03
Progress photo: http://photos.yahoo.com/saffire333

On Sun, 12 Oct 2003 22:03:35 -0500, Damsel in dis Dress
wrote:


Does anyone have advice for dealing with eating to console my sorrow? It
doesn't work. It only makes me feel worse. But somehow, I can't see that
when I start shoveling the crap in.

What if instead of eating you did something *else* with your hands
like knitting or sewing or even crocheting.

Ms.Jaime

In article ,
Damsel in dis Dress wrote:

Yup, I'm one ****ed up bitch.

And I loves ya.

*bighugs*

Miche (p and e)

--
If you want to end war and stuff you got to sing loud.
-- Arlo Guthrie, "Alice's Restaurant"

On Sun, 12 Oct 2003 23:04:28 -0500, Damsel in dis Dress
wrote:


I'll ask him how important it is for him to have popcorn. Maybe he'll give
it away. Or, put it on the top shelf. I can't reach the second to top
shelf in the kitchen, let alone the very top (the cupboards go all the way
to the ceiling, and I'm 5'3"). We'll figure something out. I can't
continue on this way. I'll let you know how it goes.

Having him put his stash where you cannot reach it is a good idea.
I am 5'3" myself and I tell my oldest if he wants certain things in
the house then he had better put them where I cannot get to them.

He puts things on the top of my 10 foot high china cabinet
and even with my stepstool I could never reach them there.

Ms.Jaime